It’s my life and I just don’t know what to do with it!
I remember when I was about ten years old, I desperately wanted to be thirteen so I could be under the “teenagers” rank. I thought at the time that once you were a teenager, then it automatically meant that you were an adult. I thought that it opened doors and opportunites once you got to this age. These are the worthless things that were going through my little ten year old brain.
I remeber wanting to be a pediatricain once I grew up. But later on, every year, I wanted to be something different. I would watch movies and instantly see myself as an actress. I never took drama classes because I always thought I was not so good and that it would be a complete waste of time.
When American Idol hit the cultural scene, I immediately would think of switching carrers. I knew I could sing but for some reason, my fear of being rejected held me back to try out. I just thought that singing in front of many people would just be impossible since the only place I’ve really sang was my shower and few times, in front of my family.
And so, I gave up on my dreams of becoming a star and decided to go to college with hopes of becoming a doctor one day. I am not sure if this is really what I want, but for now, I want to give it a try.
